Changing by Myself or Waiting for Life to Change Me

We know we don't do our best,
We know we don't do the right thing,
We know what we want,
We know…..but..... we IGNORE it.

You say you’re aware, but be it without do anything , it’s the same that u do NOTHING.
You say you're waiting for right time, but when the right time comes, you let it PASSED.
You say you don't know what will make you change, so you wait until you know it.
Time goes by and you still in this point without changing. 
You know it's not right , you’re worried, but you still repeat it and change nothing.

Until one day, life changes you
It’s not getting better but worse, by then you curse life, 
You feel that it's not what you want, please change me,
You become stress and worried even more,......
And one day, in your deep mind, you’re thinking of what happens in your life,
Then you realize that u don't do you best, you don't feel gratitude and grateful
You don't achieve what you want and at the same time you can't accept what you’re doing in your life now.
So question after question come after you, 
What's wrong with me? 
Why I always grumble when I own everything, why I still feel empty inside? 
oo God , please help me. You pray all day, it's help to make you CALM.
but NOBODY will help u , except YOURSELF. 

Don't waste your time to challenge life and waiting for life to change you.
Every single day, change yourself and practice to live in a better way, no matter if you have money or not. Life don't see you in that way, but through your kindness and love .
We live too long under people's judgment, we grow up with money's doctrine, instead of living with gratefulness, kindness, love, live in proper way. People ask me that if you don't have money, then don't talk about kindness. Let me ask you this, do you need money to give a genuine smile to others everyday because u feel grateful?. Yap, it's not wrong that money important, but first thing that you need to know is what life is.

Sometimes I meet wealthy people, more than enough than others but they still say they have no enough, need more, so ask yourself, how much money do you need for u to say enough? so when you think about this question, u might realize that it's not about money after all.

But It's MORE about you, yourself and you life.

When you wake up tomorrow, say thanks to life, doing more good things, and express your love to others, because when something happen (you never know), you have felt real alive in one day, rather than in entire life feeling like human dead inside.

What you’re doing now, be it what you want or because you have to accept it, it doesn't matter at all. Because as long as it's good thing , do it, learn and practice more about life, that maybe something that u feel is missing all this long!!!

 

ASK Ourself

How much u know about ur self?

How much u know about life? 

What purpose you in this life ?

Have u smile today? 

Have you do ur best today?

Have you say thank you or any positive words or attitude today?

Have u feel grateful in this morning when u wake up? 

Thanks god, i grateful for every second u give me. 

It's not always how much money can we earn or get, but how we deal with our life.

Have money is important but how many u want , it seems no limit so when u can decide it's enough and then u can use money for good cause.

LETTING GO

Yesterday, just chat with my friend about this title about letting go.

He will share with me more about this topic because he knows more. (thanks cong)

sometimes when we face a problem , we feel emotion or suppressed it.

Now we learn to letting go (the middle path) become our natural habit.

from my trial and error, hahaha becoz my way is like that.

In my girly years : ) , when my mom gave me advise from her point of view and i couldn't take it. i let my emotion flow, maybe i was crying or didn't wanna hear, emotion controlled me . sometimes i thought if i didn't leave my hometown to jakarta, living independently in jakarta, maybe i didn't know that my parents point of view (long2 stories) is worthed, and could suits me in any terms and conditions.just how make me to mix and match it. they give the strong foundation in my life that i don't realise when i'm living with them. But in contradictive situation, if someone told me about them, mostly part was gossip, told me about my family, my hearts hurted but infront of them, i gave them my sweetest smile. i suppressed that feeling, only for myself. this condition follow me until this recenly years.

In beginning of this year, i practise letting go, when i accept myself, i know exactly what happen, i don't want any confrontation with that people who used mostly of their time to collect news about others and not focus in self improvement. It's not their fault, but it's culture. If i give any explanations do u think it's the best way to cure my heart and to stop that gossip? i don't think so. it can be more complicated, chaos. so i just keep mum. because when i talk my opinion, that person say i don't want to know others opinion, so from there i learn when people focus on their side and don't want to open their mind and heart, we can't do anything.

My mind and stronghearted learn to accept this real situation, and i letting go this feeling, i cure my heart by myself because now that's gossip or people say anything about me or my loved ones, it doesn't matter, it's not a big deal, people make it, want mess up or fix it (i don't know exactly) but i know that i know exactly what happen, i do my best for that, no need to announce ,because time will give us know and everythings will good at last.

For me to know exactly :

I born in this world, i can't make everybody to love/like me, but i want to learn like everybody, Make friends to anyone.

People praise me or look down me, it's ok, i learn to appreciate them and never look down to anyone because for me , we are same in this world, we belong to this universe, so what's point for the negative feeling to others?

People can talk anything to me, good one or bad one, i learn to not say the bad things but say the right things or don't say anything (see the terms and conditions) , For me, every person is a good person. example that if we don't like this person, but he/she still have friends too, so this means that if we can't go along with this person,just accept them.

I learn to accept all the things and problems that i have or people give me and do my best to work on it. I learn may things from others till now i feel more lively. I can't change others if i can't change myself.

If u 're ready , teacher will appear ( like Robin.S said in his books)

THanks for that books give me passion and know that i'm in the right path. and along these month i feel ease. I know i've to practise more and learning to growth, it's continuos improvement.

LIFE IS FAIR IN THE END.