LETTING GO

Yesterday, just chat with my friend about this title about letting go.

He will share with me more about this topic because he knows more. (thanks cong)

sometimes when we face a problem , we feel emotion or suppressed it.

Now we learn to letting go (the middle path) become our natural habit.

from my trial and error, hahaha becoz my way is like that.

In my girly years : ) , when my mom gave me advise from her point of view and i couldn't take it. i let my emotion flow, maybe i was crying or didn't wanna hear, emotion controlled me . sometimes i thought if i didn't leave my hometown to jakarta, living independently in jakarta, maybe i didn't know that my parents point of view (long2 stories) is worthed, and could suits me in any terms and conditions.just how make me to mix and match it. they give the strong foundation in my life that i don't realise when i'm living with them. But in contradictive situation, if someone told me about them, mostly part was gossip, told me about my family, my hearts hurted but infront of them, i gave them my sweetest smile. i suppressed that feeling, only for myself. this condition follow me until this recenly years.

In beginning of this year, i practise letting go, when i accept myself, i know exactly what happen, i don't want any confrontation with that people who used mostly of their time to collect news about others and not focus in self improvement. It's not their fault, but it's culture. If i give any explanations do u think it's the best way to cure my heart and to stop that gossip? i don't think so. it can be more complicated, chaos. so i just keep mum. because when i talk my opinion, that person say i don't want to know others opinion, so from there i learn when people focus on their side and don't want to open their mind and heart, we can't do anything.

My mind and stronghearted learn to accept this real situation, and i letting go this feeling, i cure my heart by myself because now that's gossip or people say anything about me or my loved ones, it doesn't matter, it's not a big deal, people make it, want mess up or fix it (i don't know exactly) but i know that i know exactly what happen, i do my best for that, no need to announce ,because time will give us know and everythings will good at last.

For me to know exactly :

I born in this world, i can't make everybody to love/like me, but i want to learn like everybody, Make friends to anyone.

People praise me or look down me, it's ok, i learn to appreciate them and never look down to anyone because for me , we are same in this world, we belong to this universe, so what's point for the negative feeling to others?

People can talk anything to me, good one or bad one, i learn to not say the bad things but say the right things or don't say anything (see the terms and conditions) , For me, every person is a good person. example that if we don't like this person, but he/she still have friends too, so this means that if we can't go along with this person,just accept them.

I learn to accept all the things and problems that i have or people give me and do my best to work on it. I learn may things from others till now i feel more lively. I can't change others if i can't change myself.

If u 're ready , teacher will appear ( like Robin.S said in his books)

THanks for that books give me passion and know that i'm in the right path. and along these month i feel ease. I know i've to practise more and learning to growth, it's continuos improvement.

LIFE IS FAIR IN THE END.

Bindari Collection

Yesterday , i bought bindari collection cd (12 cd), all instumental , very good.

Just sit down, listen to the music, type my blog, or just play my mind , it's very calming and soothing. it helps me to practise recharge my energy, my mind and soul after one day.

it just great after listen it, then pray and go to sleep.

Continuos Improvement in Life

So many feelings contradictive. This is what i feel before learning more about life. just follow the crowded, when i have so many questions but i don't have any answer. then i go through deeply to myself, deeply... more deeply to feel, to ask myself what i want in my life, what i'm going to. i write my journal although it's not everyday , sometimes write poem, mostly i do is  talking to myself, sometimes like talk to god when feeling blue, talking to the mirror, looking to myself, in my case to find about life , it's worthed i do that, it makes me practise to remind me, to critisize about myself, like u have 2 opinion in ur mind , and you choose the one u think the right one. 

I'm a independent girl, can go to watching movie alone , like to go with my friends but if they can't, it doesn't a matter for me, i don't want depend to anyone else. I'm childish and in one side I'm mature, i think everyone also like this, we have 2 character in our life. soft and tough side, and we need this because life is always in balance. Until now ,I'm always practise to learn about life, gratitude, grateful,maintain positive thinking and to keep on track where's i heading to. 

when u know how life is working , live lightly, feel blessed, there doesn't have any problem but challenge to make us growth. at last in my life i smile without regret.

Know myself well, mind and soul collide, keep body fit, that's all my treasures. Learn, read,doing, practise continuous, never give up. when u know ur self well, u give to others, ur loved one without feel boring, tired, but u feel grateful. feel more lively,more passion and gratitude for our life.

What life give us, we accept. We pursue our dream, we achieve it. take responsibility in our life!

How much time life will give to us, we don't calculate becoz we don't waste it any moment.

earth and sky, mind,body and soul, when it's all collide, that's the wonderful thing.

I see it , ask urself When you will? never too late ... do our best, let life/god do the rest.