Get swollen eye

ooooo my goodness, i get eye swollen near the new year's eve. i call it my new year's gift. thanks to remind me not too "thamciak" , can not enough to eat sambal. hohoho : ) today i see again, it slowly recover, i hope it get well soon, yesterday i still want it recover soon, so shy that everyone see u in different way, hahha : ) but it's not me if i can't tackle the situation. hohoho : ) i'm confidence to give them to see me in different way, to give them reminder don't so "tham ciak", to learn the other way to accept me , not perfect me. now i accept it, slowly recover... it's ok, new year's eve to celebrate, if i can't, no need to expect, still can celebrate at home. hihi : ) join with my family maybe another day. hope in 2days can recover but if u slowly2 too, it's ok. i accept u and hope u be my friend before i let u go. hahhaa : ) wish me get well soon. thanks to remind me, swollen eye. 

THANK YOU FOR EVERYONE IN MY LIFE

Thank you to life that give me everything i have and don't have,

Thank you to life that give me always to learn the new thing, new person, anything that give me more thoughtful, wiser , learn to accept and letting go, always pratice and sharing.

For who I am now :

* Thanks for my family, never give up to give me advise, always stand beside me, always give me warm, joy ,and love unconditionally. yah nobody's perfect but in my heart ,my mind my family imperfection makes it perfect. we learn from each other, no need think about others , we tough, together and here we are now without regret, all sad, love, laugh, and it goes again, we more mature, make us stronger, nothing to fear, just be ourself. I love u mom, dad,hubby,sis,bro, and my 2 little niece.

* Thanks to my big family , all of u taught me so many things, your laugh, joy , sharing give my life more colourful, sometimes tears come down but i know we still love .still respect each other, because all we give each other it's never regret, it give us learn more and more thing to share. maybe sometimes we don't contact each other , maybe because our schedule or missed up , never mind u know what we have its a great connection. no need to wait who call 1st.because we stand by each other.

*Thanks to my all friends, u know who u are and impact my life, from little cute girl to be a woman, spare most time with my friend. till now, when i meet you guys, i feel our feeling deeper : ) u all like my family. i cannot say one by one ur name becoz it's so many and if i forget one of ur name, i'm sad too. hahha : ) whatever we face up in our life , we still in there for each other. every stage of life, we will face it, we will face it together, u never alone, me too. your kindness and warmness always fill up my life. in our laughters still have tears, but we know we always stand by each other, cheer u up when u down, just give ear and hug to make u feel warm and we burst in tears may be don't know what exactly happen but still feel the same thing, becoz U're Special, coz U'RE MY FRIEND. Friend, whereever u are, whatever u do, i'm still the same. i love all of u. Muachh...Muachhh

*Thanks to my teacher, the person i'll always respect, give lessons that don't know is it useful for me then but it's wrong minded , always useful whatever i learn, and i learn from u, u 're not perfect too but u always try to give the perfect one to ur students, always challenge them, train them, practise , so never give up to the new one becoz u always make part in our growth. u're the perfect one! thanks to all my teacher.

*Thanks to person maybe i never know u, maybe u're in coincidence meet me or know me or konow u, for person in my life till nowdays, thank you become u're in part to make my wonderful life, my colourful life. Because You there, i learn more. Thanks to everyone in this universal include to the flowers i'd been passed by these all days.

Thanks to the life giving me such a beautiful thing to learn, to practise, to give my best everyday,never give up to reach, always grateful for thing that i have and i don't have, it doesn't matter becoz in life , we always take and give, lost and found, laugh and cry, have and don't have, it doesn't matter because life it is always in that way, one still we can keep it's the FEELING and The MOMENT,but the BEST one is Letting GO.

New Day (13-10-09)

Today 13-10-09, I'm very excited to attend class after almost 6 years mostly spend my whole time in work life ( my carreer)

Me and my husband decide to learn new thing or to pursue our dreams or what we want. This is what i want , this is what i dream on. 

Hope that when my 30 comes , i'd ready to go to next step in my life.

For my dreams and personal achievement in these years, only one word to express "blissful". 

I learn that :

- I don't need to be rich but i have enough and rich in my soul .

- I'm not proud but i'm appreciate & gratitude for all i have and everyone gives me . whether is it praise, fierce, every emotional conditional, my tears ,laugh give me to become where i am today.

- I'm not looking for attention, but feel warmness in my heart with love from my family, friends,  my loved ones and everyone passed by in my life.

- I'm not thinking if, but i focus on now.

- I'm not waiting for people's help but ask for help or do it by myself. 

- I'm not waiting for life creates for me, but i create my life, i make every decision and responsible for all consequences. May be sometimes is wrong or stupid but it's part of process learning about life and i'm human at all. so if i fall, i'll stand again.

- Dare to dream on, and achieve ur dream

- Do what u want , if u don't know , accept what life gives u now. ( in all this year i accept what life give and always learn to know what i want , until now what i accept and what i want already aligned)

- Don't follow the crowd, but follow ur heart (of course in good way)

- Read self development book , and practise more and continuous.

- Keep Fit.

- Always smile and say thank you and growth good attitude become our habits.

- will updated again .... : )

ASK Ourself

How much u know about ur self?

How much u know about life? 

What purpose you in this life ?

Have u smile today? 

Have you do ur best today?

Have you say thank you or any positive words or attitude today?

Have u feel grateful in this morning when u wake up? 

Thanks god, i grateful for every second u give me. 

It's not always how much money can we earn or get, but how we deal with our life.

Have money is important but how many u want , it seems no limit so when u can decide it's enough and then u can use money for good cause.

LETTING GO

Yesterday, just chat with my friend about this title about letting go.

He will share with me more about this topic because he knows more. (thanks cong)

sometimes when we face a problem , we feel emotion or suppressed it.

Now we learn to letting go (the middle path) become our natural habit.

from my trial and error, hahaha becoz my way is like that.

In my girly years : ) , when my mom gave me advise from her point of view and i couldn't take it. i let my emotion flow, maybe i was crying or didn't wanna hear, emotion controlled me . sometimes i thought if i didn't leave my hometown to jakarta, living independently in jakarta, maybe i didn't know that my parents point of view (long2 stories) is worthed, and could suits me in any terms and conditions.just how make me to mix and match it. they give the strong foundation in my life that i don't realise when i'm living with them. But in contradictive situation, if someone told me about them, mostly part was gossip, told me about my family, my hearts hurted but infront of them, i gave them my sweetest smile. i suppressed that feeling, only for myself. this condition follow me until this recenly years.

In beginning of this year, i practise letting go, when i accept myself, i know exactly what happen, i don't want any confrontation with that people who used mostly of their time to collect news about others and not focus in self improvement. It's not their fault, but it's culture. If i give any explanations do u think it's the best way to cure my heart and to stop that gossip? i don't think so. it can be more complicated, chaos. so i just keep mum. because when i talk my opinion, that person say i don't want to know others opinion, so from there i learn when people focus on their side and don't want to open their mind and heart, we can't do anything.

My mind and stronghearted learn to accept this real situation, and i letting go this feeling, i cure my heart by myself because now that's gossip or people say anything about me or my loved ones, it doesn't matter, it's not a big deal, people make it, want mess up or fix it (i don't know exactly) but i know that i know exactly what happen, i do my best for that, no need to announce ,because time will give us know and everythings will good at last.

For me to know exactly :

I born in this world, i can't make everybody to love/like me, but i want to learn like everybody, Make friends to anyone.

People praise me or look down me, it's ok, i learn to appreciate them and never look down to anyone because for me , we are same in this world, we belong to this universe, so what's point for the negative feeling to others?

People can talk anything to me, good one or bad one, i learn to not say the bad things but say the right things or don't say anything (see the terms and conditions) , For me, every person is a good person. example that if we don't like this person, but he/she still have friends too, so this means that if we can't go along with this person,just accept them.

I learn to accept all the things and problems that i have or people give me and do my best to work on it. I learn may things from others till now i feel more lively. I can't change others if i can't change myself.

If u 're ready , teacher will appear ( like Robin.S said in his books)

THanks for that books give me passion and know that i'm in the right path. and along these month i feel ease. I know i've to practise more and learning to growth, it's continuos improvement.

LIFE IS FAIR IN THE END.

Bindari Collection

Yesterday , i bought bindari collection cd (12 cd), all instumental , very good.

Just sit down, listen to the music, type my blog, or just play my mind , it's very calming and soothing. it helps me to practise recharge my energy, my mind and soul after one day.

it just great after listen it, then pray and go to sleep.

Continuos Improvement in Life

So many feelings contradictive. This is what i feel before learning more about life. just follow the crowded, when i have so many questions but i don't have any answer. then i go through deeply to myself, deeply... more deeply to feel, to ask myself what i want in my life, what i'm going to. i write my journal although it's not everyday , sometimes write poem, mostly i do is  talking to myself, sometimes like talk to god when feeling blue, talking to the mirror, looking to myself, in my case to find about life , it's worthed i do that, it makes me practise to remind me, to critisize about myself, like u have 2 opinion in ur mind , and you choose the one u think the right one. 

I'm a independent girl, can go to watching movie alone , like to go with my friends but if they can't, it doesn't a matter for me, i don't want depend to anyone else. I'm childish and in one side I'm mature, i think everyone also like this, we have 2 character in our life. soft and tough side, and we need this because life is always in balance. Until now ,I'm always practise to learn about life, gratitude, grateful,maintain positive thinking and to keep on track where's i heading to. 

when u know how life is working , live lightly, feel blessed, there doesn't have any problem but challenge to make us growth. at last in my life i smile without regret.

Know myself well, mind and soul collide, keep body fit, that's all my treasures. Learn, read,doing, practise continuous, never give up. when u know ur self well, u give to others, ur loved one without feel boring, tired, but u feel grateful. feel more lively,more passion and gratitude for our life.

What life give us, we accept. We pursue our dream, we achieve it. take responsibility in our life!

How much time life will give to us, we don't calculate becoz we don't waste it any moment.

earth and sky, mind,body and soul, when it's all collide, that's the wonderful thing.

I see it , ask urself When you will? never too late ... do our best, let life/god do the rest.

Coming Home

So excited, have strong feeling to breeze , feel this way.
coming home again together and ever , gather with my mom and dad, my sista and family, also big family.
back home to celebrate moon cake festival, having bbq, moving house (my father's dream house)
just want to say that, it feels great when coming home.
i love u mom, dad, and all.
great having u by myside and so happy that we can be family in this life.
god bless us.
no matter what ,i'm yours.

Getaway in Sentosa

have a good time in sentosa, before we start the new chapter, continue our study. we do what we want becoz we know what we want. don't always follow the crowd, but know that who u are and where we heading to. thank's to give us this chance. gbus

MYSELF

I am Cerah

it's my indonesian name, in english means bright.

it's a good name, give hope and make me always think i have purpose in this life.

it's no coincidence for me, i hope i can brighten my life and hope one day i can give something in this life, this world be a better place i used to be.

I am a thinker, but also have funny and fool aside.

i love my life very much , sad, happy, every moment in my life until now i feel more enlightened.

when i young, a little girl, i don't know what's my life would be

only know that knowledge is my power, i can become what i want if i'm good in my study.

My Parent told me knowledge is the most important thing in my life. and don't think others just consent in ur study.

I don't think i did my best , up and down , let it flow

In university, i have one quote : if i have learned it ,don't fear i don't do good in my test, just do my best.

mark is important but the most important is what i learn and how i dealing with my life

what i learn, will teach me whether in small or big portion in my life, know something better than i don't know either. so always have passion in learning something.

after graduate, in working i learn new thing again, how work to others, how to solve the problem, how to negotiate wotk with others.

the first job i got is admin finance job, it's easy for me,then i move to be finance controller in new set up company, in here it more complicated how to do things align with my boss need. no need do the right thing but do what my boss want and maybe it's not align with me. because i'm idealistic person. but i know i win the colleaque's heart because i'd done my best for that company and no regret to learn from there and i give something to my employer too. although we don't always have the same ideas but we learn from each other.

then i move to the new job , go to marketing, i'm always want to try it and i got it.

New boss with good attitude , he's always my mentor until now.

my job dealing with people, more people than before, learn to listen to customer, make friends with them, learn more thing in marketing because u dealing with people. it's not the same, more challenging, and i like it.

but still have problem and i must dealing with that, still have unsatisfied, solve the problem , and then i get the conclusion that whatever i work/do, i still deal the same thing, the feeling is same, it's how u deal it and enjoy it. after i feel this way, then i get the chance get job in singapore until now

i don't want to looking what i want to do again, but what i do now is enjoy what i work, i feel enlightened in this way, i do something because i have a purpose. is this what i want? may be no but i have a purpose, i want to pass the life exam to another step. after pass this, i will do what i want to do, my purpose is that i want to give back to society, sharing with others about life.

because life is so simple and like a school.

i love my life, accept what i do, doing in concious, do my best and let god/life do the rest.

living with passion, and i know where i head to.

i don't want to waste every single second in my life.

i know who i am, what i want, which way to go, every rock in my way is something life give me to learn more, i treasure my life preciously so hope everyone too.